Someone Special

To someone special in my life...

and i know

but

Forgive Me

Never have i felted so hopeless, so weak... Not knowing what the outcome going to be and what would i do after knowing the answer i've been waiting for. It's been a while since i am the one waiting for an answer and thinking about so many possibility how things can end up to be, being happier as life at last fall into pieces again or would i burn and crash knowing that losing my love one with no hope of returning back.

Having difficult sleeping, insomnia, can't even eat as i can't stop thinking about the outcome that i will get. Words can just do all the little things in this world but words can't heal up broken heart of those i broke. Knowing all the things i have done to you kept me thinking that you wouldn't want to forgive me. To be able to regret of all the things i did and all the things i did that broke your heart. I was so closed up with my feelings towards my past than i didn't give myself a chance to understand you and to cherish you while you were with me.

Am i too late to undo all my doings to her? Has anyone else able to win her heart before i could even begin to heal her of my doings? All questions that are running through my head like water and questions after questions keep on flowing. I guess realizing that the mistake has been made and nothing could be done. Sometimes people should just say something so that those who are waiting for the answer won't feel as if things are going to be forever. I act like a child begging over someone who i love. 

I guess i deserve what i get for being so childish over my reaction in the past that lead me to break her heart. It's not easy to show how sincere someone can be without letting them prove that they knew what they did wrong but i guess some people just wouldn't want somethings to happen twice. Maybe too afraid of the what if things happen again possibility. 

To be able to make someone believe in you after you have lied to her is really hard but it is not impossible to do and only if chance is given that you are able to undo all the mistakes and turn all the knives into flowers once more. I could just sit here and hope for the best, praying for your forgiving. Whatever the outcomes is going to be is something i have to deal with later on but one thing for sure is that i can ask her to love me but i can never force her to fall in love with me ...

JOEY... FORGIVE ME ='(

I'm Sorry

a very sorry to my love one~ Joey Fang.
i m still not mature enough.
i'm the one who don't know how to appreciate ur love.
i m really a failure and a bad guy,
that always make you sad and unhappy.
i wanna let the whole world know how bad m i.

-Apologizing-

When i close my eye,
i think of you, i feel you,
these days without you i really feel uncomfortable.
I miss you, i worry you.
Hoping you to come back.
I really couldn't sleep these two nights,
keep on thinking back our past.
I thought of lots of things.
I realize that i really couldn't live without you.
The feeling is so uncomfortable and suffer.
How good if time could stop by,
or there is a chance to turn back?
If there is, i will really appreciate you, cherish what you give.
I will continue to love you even though you don't hope me to stay.
I feel so wrong and so guilty.
I really know wrong le.
SORRY !!!

Song Of The Day

Justin Bieber - Never Say Never ft. Jaden Smith

See I never thought that I could walk through fire.
I never thought that I could take the burn.
I never had the strength to take it higher,
Until I reached the point of no return.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
It's my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up up up,
And never say never.

I never thought I could feel this power.
I never thought that I could feel this free.
I'm strong enough to climb the highest tower.
And I'm fast enough to run across the sea.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
Cause this is my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

Here we go!
Guess who?
JSmith and Jb!
I gotcha lil bro.

I can handle him.
Hold up, aight?
I can handle him.

Now he's bigger than me,
Taller than me.
And he's older than me,
And stronger than me.
And his arms a little bit longer than me.
But he ain't on a JB song with me!

I be trying a chill
They be trying to side with the thrill.
No pun intended, was raised by the power of Will.

Like Luke with the force, when push comes to shove.
Like Cobe with the 4th, ice water with blood.

I gotta be the best, and yes
We're the flyest.
Like David and Goliath,
I conquered the giant.
So now I got the world in my hand,
I was born from two stars
So the moon's where I land.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

Song Of The Day

It's a nice song which i would like to recommend to all of you here.
It's a touch and romantic song.
The title of this song is 'Loving A Person'
I love it so much.
The lyrics of this song is so meaningful.

Bored

Woke up at 10.30 something this morning due to late sleep last night. Then i online and replied comments. Nothing can do today. What a boring day. Go nearby shop lots and bought a packed rice. Got chicken, vegetables, and potato. Taste good and i enjoyed it.

Planning to do something but my mind was so blank. Then i remember Ashley's saman. So i m going to help her pay the saman. Went Am Bank and withdraw Rm150. To buy shoes and pay the saman. Only i realise my account left RM680. OMG. I tell myself i cant so waste anymore. If not how am i gonna survive in college lea?

Well,after withdraw money. I went MBI to settle the saman. I went upstair that Badan Undang-Undang for discount. Actual amount is Rm50 and after discount is Rm25. Quite worth ma half price. LOL. Then drove to Complex Yik Foong and bought a Converse Shoes. Quite nice and i love it. It cost me Rm113 after discount. LOL. After i bought, i kena another saman for simply park car within the box. OMG. Totally speechless and i gonna get killed by my mum.


Here is the pictures of my new shoes. :)Chuck Taylor All Star Contrast Ox
Color : Off White/Red/Green

My Heart Will Go On

Every night in my dreams
I see you. I feel you.
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

There is some love that will not
go away

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on.